One day when i’m tired enough, i will choose to leave you. Firstly, if you really wanted me to continue going after you, you wouldn’t have said that the ending will be the same between us, when i’ve heard that, i was wondering why did you say that. Then again, i ponder and think if you really like me you wouldn’t had said that. It hurts me. What the hell do you want me to do? Continue to go after you or not? You want me to give up or not give up? I’m utterly in pain and i do not know what i can do anymore. If you really like me you should have done something about it or even showed signs. Not draw away from me time to time again. Do you understand how tiring can that be?  

The reason why it wasn’t physical its because i don’t dare to get physical because its my first time getting so close to someone and I’ve decided to settle down for you. You think guys like me won’t be shy to go physical with a girl? Actually i’m shy as well. Somehow what i don’t like about you is, you are too painstakingly correcting people when you do not even admit your own mistakes and i fucking hate that. 

Hearbreaking , wounded , bleeding .

Heartbreaking already.

I want to say i miss you…..but you are going to distant away from me. What am i going to do? 

After we’ve gone through so much. You want to distant yourself away from me? 

看到了，读到了。也许这么多个月以来，我真的没有去细心的去体会这你一直在我身边的感觉。 但其实我真的不想就这样做个了断， 也不想失去你。 你对我是很重要的，这点在我心里是每改变过的。 心里一直想着，我连第一步的牺牲都还没踏出就这样结束觉得很不甘心。 很无能。但是还没想要放弃。也许需要一些时间检讨对自己，虚荣的行为。一向来我真的没想过要伤害到你，当你伤心的时候，我的心也感到了。当你跟我说我有机会时，我以为你不是说真的。 

为什么我这么晚才发现？ 我现在能做什么来弥补这一切？ 如果现在付出还不晚，还敢得来弥补这段感情我一定做得到。

最近的心情也够糟了。还这么的糟蹋它。 

Sometimes its so difficult and complicated.

It really sucks when your friend whom you care a lot don’t ask you out whereas he/she calls someone else instead of you despite you yourself have already tried. 



It hurts so badly. It is like the sudden pierce in my heart having to apologize to you and yet you didn’t reply instead replying to my other messages about work. Do you even know how does it felt to apologize with a heart to your best friend? Pretending to be okay. Yet feels so hurt.